4:21 p.m. - March 04, 2004
More Stress
God, Why is it that when you REALLY need to talk to someone, they arent there for ya. Tiff isn't online and either is Cass so I guess I'm just gonna have to vent here.
Today has been completely ****** up. It started out good...I woke up happy and decided that it was a good day.
Then I get to school and because Sunday is our Festival Concert for Band, Clore had a *&!@ session about how we never practice, how he's tired of going over the same stuff day after day because we dont practice and it just really got to me. I PRACTICE!!! When I have time- and if I dont I usually make time. I dont have time anymore because I am constantly being overwhelmed with homework. Homework this , Homework that and it's REALLY REALLY starting to stress me out, to the point where I lost it as soon as I got in my room this afternoon, I said hi to Mom, and immeadiatly walked upstairs and burst into tears. And you know it's gotta be getting to me if I don't stop and see my piggie first......he usually gets a hello as soon as I walk in the door.
Eco teacher gave us a "Investigating Ice Bubbles" lab to do tonight and I completely don't understand ANYTHING about it. It's one of those labs where you have to think about the answer, the answer is really never given to you on the page and I HATE those type of labs, because mine are always wrong and I do really terrible on them.
Plus being the perfectionist that I am, if my grades aren't a A or a B, I flip and today she told us that the highest grade in the class is a C. And I really cant understand how mine can be that- I do ALL of my homework, and study for tests and quizzes, unlike some who NEVER do homework, ALWAY FAIL quizzes/tests and everyday she takes a class participation grade and if you talk alot then you get major points taken off. I DONT TALK- EVER. I'm not trying to fail a class because I talked and fooled around. I don't want to have to repeats something over again, especially if I have to take it with her, cuz she's EVIL. And a HOMEWORK OGRE!
Then this smorning in geometry, I failed my test I took yesterday and so did THE REST OF THE CLASS except for one person who got a perfect score but is super --- smart in math- she understands everything and I can't comprehend ANYTHING. I really do think I have a learning disability when it comes to math. Nothing clicks with me- it's all foreign.
Plus Mom didnt help when I came home. Evidently Dad has been bitching and moaning today (to quote her) about everything and when I came home I told her about Clore and my eco. homework and she looked at me and said "All anyone does today is whine" and that's when I went upstairs.
I gotta go figure out how to do this lab and finish up some geometry homework that I STILL don't understand.
JEEEZ.........................
