4:14 p.m. - December 03, 2003
Too Much Drama In My Life
Ughhhhh....My day has been TOTAL HELL!!! And it all started in 2nd block with Andyman. See, yesterday we were passing notes back and forth, talking about the upcoming fieldtrip to Baltimore Aquarium.....I asked him if he was bringing his CD player and he told me he had to ask his Mom first because he always has to run stuff by her before he does it. Well, I told him to just bring it and not tell her, because if he asked and she said no, she'd literally search his book bag the day of the trip to make sure he didn't bring it. Well, he stuck the note in his lunch box and forgot to take it out and she found it this morning when she was packing his lunch for him.......And she totally went beserk. Yelling and cussing as him telling him he was worthless and that he was a liar and she couldn't trust him and that no matter how hard she tried to make him have a life, he'd never amount to anything. Then she implied that I was a instigator and that I was always bossing him around and that he listened to me more than he listened to her. Then she told him that he was to come home today and he wasn't allowed to do anything but sit on the couch unless he had to use the bathroom or if it was time to eat dinner. No TV, Stereo, Roller Coaster Tycoon. No nothing. The thing that she was most pissed about was the whole Heather incident earlier this year because she told him that he wasn't to talk or have anything to do with me anymore and yet he still has. How can he not when I eat lunch with him and have 2nd and 3rd block with him? She also told him that he was going to come home and take down the Christmas decorations and that she was returning his presents because he didn't deserve them this year. And she threatened to KICK HIM OUT THE HOUSE!Which will not happen because he's only 16, And she even told him that she was taking his money and spending it so that when he did leave home, he wouldn't have a dime. It pisses me off so bad that she has any right to say this to him and that I am such a bad person. I don't think I boss him around or make him do stuff, if I did he certainly wouldn't have told me, "I'm gonna ask her if I can bring it because I don't want to get in trouble". He doesn't listen to me, How many times do I have to prove that to her and him. And now, she wants him to not go on the Baltimore Trip because she knows I'm going and she also doesn't want me sitting with him- guess I'll be sitting with Tiffany............
Everything that has happened this year with him and his mother has really changed our friendship. We are NO where near as close as we were last year. I'm not sure I even want to be friends with him anymore. I've decided not to write any more notes, call him and he's going home to tell his Mom tonight that we're not friends anymore, because in a way we aren't. I'm only going to talk to him when I have to. And even though I say this, it kills me inside that our friendship has come to this all because of her. It also kills me that I can't have the friendship I want with him.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Even though I haven't done anything bad really, why do I have this endless pit in my stomach????
