5:11 p.m. - November 19, 2003
Why Am I Easily Manipulated?
If I could have one question answered in my life right now, I’d have to ask “Why do certain people thrive on picking on other people?” Just when you think your day is going pretty good some person has to come along and ruin it for you. That certain person is a girl in my 4th block class named Sam. Now, you have to understand that Sam thrives on getting attention and she loves to taunt people....... and it seems like it’s me that she likes to taunt. Well today in 4th block Beth (A Kenny Chesney Lover) and I were having to call some people Mrs. Venable knows and tell them and meeting was cancelled. Now, It was just me, Beth and Mrs. V in there but being the nosy annoying person Sam is she had to come in there and see what we were doing. Well, Mrs. V life and left Beth and I to call people. Sam stayed in there and then just pipes in and says “Why do you and Beth have quiet voices. You need strong loud voices” I just said I don’t know, I like my voice and I’m not the only person in the world with a quiet voice” She shut up for a few minutes but then left and while she was gone I got one of the gerbils out to hold. I picked it up by it’s tail (like I’ve been taught to by Mrs. V) and Sam walks in and goes ‘Put the gerbil back. Don’t hold it that way’ Well I didn’t and she said “Why won’t you listen, I said put it back”, to which I replied “Who said I had to listen to you’ Well, Then she said, “Oh your a smart ass huh?” I didn’t say anything after that and now I’m mad at myself because I didn’t. Why do I always let people get the best of me and get the last say in everything??? For once I would love to be able to just say something that would make someone shut up for good, and to never bother or say anything to me again. And I hate the fact that I care about what other people think about me or say about me. I know I have low self-esteem and I guess I’m easily manipulated but with everything that happened today it just made it all worse. And to top it all off, the school cancelled any after school activities because of the tornado watch forecasted for tonight. Well, that means I couldn’t stay after with Mrs. V and now I can’t enjoy my pizza with my favorite teacher/person. I feel bad because Beth and I haven’t said or done anything rude to Sam yet she still picks on us. In all truth I think she’s jealous Mrs. V is always sending Beth and I to do stuff for her and that I have a close relationship with Mrs. V. I think Sam wants that, why else would she hang around and try and suck up to Mrs. V all the time?? It’s just been a all around bad day because of one certain person.
Always remember to forget the troubles that pass your way BUT never forget to remember the blessings that come each day.
I'm still waiting for the blessings that are supposed to be coming today.
