1:47 p.m. - August 17, 2003
10 Hours In The Car Gets You Thinking!
VACATION WAS AWESOME--- and let me just say that it's amazing what 10 hours in a car will do for a person, I thought about a lot of stuff, how pathetic my love life was, Andyman, my brother's upcoming wedding,about the fact that I would love to lose some lbs, which if you think about all of this is REALLY DEPRESSING!
Listening to this song, got me thinking about AndyMan:
I don't know that I should be thinkin'
Am I wastin' my time thinkin' 'bout
You and I, and these feelings
Cuz I see you and me holdin' hands
Doin' things, goin' further.On the phone in my bed
On my back, starin' at the ceiling
When I'm talkin' to you
What I feel, is it true?
I'm wondering
Whether day or late at night
What I feel deep inside it keeps burning
Oh, and this song describes my situation with AndyMan and my parents perfectly:
My dad would kill me if he only knew
Naughty things going through my mind
When I think of you
Called AndyMan Last night and talked for a hour just about life...... Found out another big thing going on in his life that I'm not allowed to tell EVER..and I never will but I just wish I didn't have to keep it cuz it's something really bad that should be told but a promise is a promise.
Got my schedule and am pissed, they messed it up so I gotta go get it fixed and guess what.......ANDY MAN, TIFF And I are in the same Vet Care class. Andyman and Tiffy hate each other's guts and Tiffy knows nothing about the fact that I like Andyman, It's so confusing. I can't sit next to Andyman cuz Tiff will think I'm crazy and that something's going on but I WANT TO SIT NEXT TO HIM.
GOD, I'm so confused....hey maybe Tiff will fall and hurt her back and be on the homebound program AGAIN and then I won't have anything to worry about..... Yeah, just maybe that will happen. *Crosses Fingers*
