2:01 p.m. - 2003-07-19
Andyman
And I wanted you so much.Just like I do right now.I wanted us to be the one the poets write their books about.I wanted it to last.I wanted to grow old. But life got in the way.
THAT SONG EXPLAINS EVERYTHING I FEEL ABOUT ANDREW........EXCEPT the part where it says "But Life got in the way", Change that to "But parents got in the way."
See, Mom and Dad like him...... they think he's nice but I don't think neither of them could picture Andyman and I more than just friends. Mom keeps asking me "Is the relationship between you and Andrew more than just a frienship?" And of course I lie to her and tell her no.......why you ask? Because if I told her she'd flip. Yes, flip. Don't all parents do? Mom might do more than flip.Maybe have a nervous breakdown right there in front of me....and if she had any energy left from that nervous breakdown she'd tell Dad.....and he of course would probably disown me or write me out of the will. Seriously......
Everything I feel for Andrew has to be kept a secret, except in this diary..... I can't tell the "rents", or my sister. Linz has always liked Andrew.....truthfully sometimes I think she dreams that he likes her...maybe he does...I'm starting to doubt anything I say anymore about him especially about this whole relationship deal. Maybe it's not meant to be.......something is always ruining our plans....my dreams of a future together... Maybe Parents haven't gotten in the way just yet but if they ever knew about it they would.....maybe they will one day soon and trust me when it does you'll know.And everyone probably sits around and says "It's just a teenage crush, She'll get over him and find a better man" WHATEVER!!!!!!! UGHHHHHHHHHH. I'm so CONFUSED!!!
