12:17 p.m. - 2003-07-12
Emotionalizing More
Well, just finished getting my diary reviewed, I got a 90, Jules said I gotta put more emotion in my diarys........... so I'm gonna try, maybe not in this entry but in the rest, I promise. It's hard, you know, because, NOTHING is going on this summer, nothing to really "emotionalize" about except maybe this.....I'm a bad person, I haven't talked to AndyMan since the last day of school.- Yeah, PATHETIC I know. It's just everytime I call, he's either outside or not there and he never calls back and I forget. But don't worry, things will heat back up between us when school starts back- it always does. The first time I see him, I get this feeling inside me that makes me melt......How can I not, when I see his dreamy eyes and that tan he got while at the beach and his hair- oh god.....how I love the blonde hair. And then, this year, I'm excited because I get to see him more since were taking Vet Care I and Basic Mechanics and Animal Science together...... I enjoyed this year during Small Animal Care class because Andrew and I were in charget of cleaning the animal cages out in the lab and we got to be alone out there together and we really opened up to each other. We talked about getting married and what we want to do career wise and having children, what we're gonna name them, our dream cars, where we're gonna live, He even told me that if I married him , he would want to live in Florida but he would live where ever I wanted to live just so I would be happy. Isn't that sweet? Yeah, it made me cry. And then when the 1st Bob died, he found me crying and he held me in his arms and just let me cry. Everything he's done for me over the years has had meaning but that day was the one I'll remember forever...and cheris for the rest of my life This year, he told me a secret he's never told anyone else, but I can't say it here....he made me promise that I wouldn't tell ANYONE..... It's the first secret that I've ever kept this long in my life. After writing all this, it made me want to call him just so I could hear his voice........ He goes through a lot of crap everyday and I think it really helps him just to have someone to talk to that won't yell at him.....Here's why-
His Dad was shot in the back while in Washington D.C. and was paralyzed. So now he's in a wheel chair and has to be hand fed by Andrew or his mom, Carol.
Carol bitches at Andrew everyday for the stupidist stuff, if the dog makes a mess or if he doesn't pick up the towel on the bathroom floor. Dumb stuff.
His real Dad just died back in May/early June. Even though he didn't talk to him much, he was still a cool person and Andrew could relate to him more than his stepdad or his mom
His Grandma just found out she has cancer and probably won't live till long. He loves his grandparents- They treat him like a human being, not a dog, like his parents do. It's rough on Andrew- trust me I know. It's a common thing to call his house and hear his Mom cussing at him in the background while I'm talking to him, calling his stupid and other stuff like that. She's so degrading. It's no wonder he can't wait to leave home when he turns 18. I would to if I had to put up with that crap everyday.
Well, I'm gonna go make that phone call right now-
